Plz Be Kind <3
“I am learning to live day by day, and I am so grateful for all my friends, family, and co-workers who continue to support me through what seems to be the most difficult days my life!”
That’s how I ended my last post - almost 8 months ago now. Since then, I can confidently say that I am still facing the most difficult days my life!
Family. Work. Health. Friends. Fucking COVID-19.
Yes, I know that the majority of us are currently fighting the same fight, but life (even before the C word) had really taken a toll on my mental health.
Watching Aunty's health deteriorate day after day. Feeling hopeless.
Making hard, potential "life" changing career decisions.
Watching other loved ones battle cancer. Still feeling hopeless.
FUCK CANCER. FUCK CANCER. FUCK CANCER. FUCK CANCER.
COVID-19 // A fucking global pandemic that through us all for a loop.
Having to work from home. Not being able to visit aunty.
Replanning our DREAM WEDDING - multiple times.
Having to watch POC have to fight for their own rights in 2020.
Unfortunately, the list goes on.
But my depressed, anxiety filled body can't handle it any more. My heart continues to ache, and each day, is an internal battle to keep my head above the water.
I want to say one more thing. We need to do a better job of being there for each other. Without my support system, I most definitely wouldn't be laying in bed, writing this. Reach out to your loved ones. Check in on your friends. And most importantly, please be kind.
Until next time.
XOX Amber Holly